So today have been quite a tiring day for me .
wore heels for the first time, and i am not regretting preferring sneakers over heels .
Heels are just making me feel more pain.. seriously.
its nice on me though but nah , i`ll pass , cause i don`t wanna look good if i feel pain. seriously . it won`t bring us any good.
looking for a job is so hard. even tough that i already have one .. which is at LIDO Imax. hmm .maybe in life u cant get waht u want huh ?
u have to work hard for it , to achieve what we really want .
so i just had my dinner. Umm yum yum.
while listening to music .. here i am updating ..
actualy , everytime i hear music .. alot of things is running through my mind.
im always thinking of something ...
reoccuring all the memories.
i always re read our old conversations.
i miss you all that . i Miss having someone where i can talk about everything.
being random at times.
i guess people wont know how i really felt.
i wanna scream it all out .. but something is blocking it.
there is some boundaries , a invisible wall covering all of scream .
where people wont be able listen.
Inside have been wanting to break free , I guess i dont really know.
i wanna feel freedom. I wanna Be who i really am.
but there are always things happened which i felt make me went back inside my
shell.
i dont know ? Thats just how i feel.
When i want to say something .. i just dont know how to elaborate it more . making people feeling hang. Or isit just me ? Feeling so paranoid.
i need to let loose. Of everything .
may my future of my life will be better, that is what i only wish for.