Long Time No Write Eh ?

hey hey ! i didn't post for pretty a long time eh ? miss me? nah, its okay. heh. I've been very busy. holidays have started and its for 3 weeks then clinical attachment for another 3 more weeks and another a week more for holidays. pretty long eh? I'm quite nervous for my clinical attachment though. attached to the surgical ward. COME ON ! i don't what to do with it. seriously. what are we gonna do there ? meh ! LOL. whatever. just wait till the day come. hehe. so tmrw i will be celebrating alif's birthday and that i will be staying at my aunts place for a night. ! wee ~ can go home late uh like this ! hahhaa. I'm so rebellious when it comes to this. well ... that my parents won't be sating overnight..only my grandma... hehehhe . its okay its alright. this can be handle by me. hhehe. I'm so excited for tomorrow ! really ! heh. thinking of buying him a swensens cake. should i ? lets just see how it goes tmrw.

THERE IS MOSQUITOES BITES EVERYWHERE AT MY LEG ! DAMMIT ! its so itchy and I'm trying my best to refrain myself from scratching . HELP ! NEEDED ! hehe. i am being lame aren't i ? pffft ~ its okay. yesterday , yesterday , there is this three cats came to my house .... my malaysia house that is.. One mother cats and two little CUTE KITTENS. i named the mother cats , Xya , one kitten named Lyka and Arcane for the other. MEH. they're so cute ! one of them was sooo naughty , kept running away ! and the other was too scared that it docent want to leave. stay in one spot. Lyka is the good one and arcane is the total opposite ! i can literally die out of cuteness. AAAAH. NOW ! i didn't even see them. wondering where they went..? are they alright and safe ? ): such cute cats ! i love 'em !  SO  anyways, i bought a red cover for my macbook. and it turns out pink ! when the apple shined throughout the red cover. DRATS ! I WANT ORANGE BUT THEY DIDNT HAVE IT WITH THEM . ouh ! and I'm aiming for that Diablo 3 game. hehe. seriously. I'm aiming for that.... one day ..... one day ...sooon ! hehehe. i sound so completely retarded . no doubt. hehe. Oh AND YA ! I am starting to read twilight book again ! hehehe ! weeeeehoo !~ it have always been so fascinating ! so ... indulging. the store line always makes me addicted . in two days i almost completed the book. I'm still reading though. almost the end . maybe by tonight i could finish it ? yes, maybe . and next book will be .... ECLIPSE ! OKAY . can can.  so i think i summarized all the things i wanted to share ? hehe. its pretty short huh ? nvm. its a lll damn wordy, im trying to make it interesting.. but i don't think I'm doing it right. or am i ? hahahaha ! ~ so ! yeah . ill try updating it more often now. if I'm not tired from working ... drats. SO ! UPDATE SOON YEAH ? XOXO

busy busy busy, damn damn damn

Hey, so I've been very busy lately. studying and going out ... visiting relatives ..cause its ... HARI RAYA.  wee ~ so yeah? i guess ? so i can't make time for updating my blog. exams ARE HEREEEEEEE . so yeah ! Mic is done long long time ago..well not that long ... just last week ? Meh , so tomorrow will be like my FON and AAP the day after tmrw. heh. so wish me luck yeah ? cause  i need all the luck i can get .. cause i didn't study that much. I'm kinda stress as what I'm studying didn't really going in to my head. damn it ! SO anyways ! I'm starting to wear the hijab. cause i don't know man... i just feel like changing. and I'm wearing that first. i wanna be a good muslimah . heh. so I will look really weird tmrw cause i ll be starting to use the hijab to school. LOL. i must change my attitude too though. cause i can't be boyish as i used too. I will be the old me just not as Tomboyish . MEH . ill be a little feminine right now. well MORE not COMPLETELY. hahahaha. i must als stop cursing and use a lot of profanity words. its not gonna be easy. i know that, hey ! but at least i am trying right ? i am having flu right now. and i don't feel kinda good. i guess i m going to be sick soon. please don't be sick tmrw or the next day..or the next next next day. or ever. LOL. ever will be great. Meh. i m starting to talk crap huh ? am i? o.O ? lol. i feel as though i am far away from khalifah and kariza. ): i don't know why.... *sigh* okay .. so i guess ill be going now? i have to study though? its kinda short post huh ? no more long long wordy post. saded. really saddening . LOL. ill try to post a long wordy post next time. I love you all ! <3 .whatever.=".whatever." a="a" anyone="anyone" blog.="blog." few="few" i="i" is="is" know="know" lol.="lol." meh="meh" nbsp="nbsp" only="only" p="p" people="people" reading="reading" think="think" this="this" which="which" who.="who." who="who" xoxo.="xoxo." you="you">

I miss you so much. do you know that ?

Its been days since u left. and i am missing you. don't you know that ? i bet you don't. you're having a hell of a time without me. you looked happier now. i sometimes wished i could just messaged you randomly and just ask hows life for you. but i guess that times just went away then. i don't know. i am sad and i don't even know why. i think i should be happy for you.. but i don't think i really do. i kept thinking about you and i can't stop that. i kept asking myself what is wrong with me ? is the problem lies on me ? i don't know man. i just don't know.

i think i am going through depression when I'm all alone. i kept being all paranoid over myself. am i just that i don't know? useless ? i don't know. i just don't know ! ~ I don't know how to explain man. its okay :D ~

Am i happy ? or just hurt ?

I stalked his profile just now. well i don't really know why exactly..maybe i just want to know how is he doing. and apparently, he is doing very well without me. so i might as well ...really don't bother about him anymore huh? its all just words. he never really meant it. i was so stupid. i can't deny that. he is now going out with his friend savannah. LOL. its funny how he can really moved on that fast. meh, maybe he is just playing around with me. I'm just so naive. really. i hate this part of me. believing in every word someone said to me. well.. i don't know wether i am happy after looking at his profile or just hurt. like come on. who wants to see someone you really loved once loving someone new so fast? and that at least he found someone new? meh. today went studying session with the usuals. lol. Bestie told us how and what he did to his girlfriend. its so sweet i have to admit that. Lol. she is lucky :D and i bet bestie is gonna take care of her :D make sure she appreciates it man, if she dosen't...ill make her do it. MEH ! so ... i don't really know what i am feeling right now. but I'm trying to replace richard. i don't know. this is stupid. i said i treat him dead but a little portion of me just feels that ...i cared for him. someone....please help me. I'm ... lost. i don't want to really rely on my feelings. its taking control over me and i don't want this things to affect me on my studies. GAH ! I've learnt from this...i don't want the history to repeat itself. its hopeless. really. i MISS dany though. really. lol. okay, shall shuddup. xoxox.

Peer tutoring :D

So today went for peer tutoring hehe. anatomy peer tutoring . i find it rather fun? HAHAHA. my tutor was name katherine . hehe. she is so bubbly and sometime really clumsy. LOL. at First she was making me confused ..but after awhile ..she is starting to make sense. meh ! I'm slow. i know that . hehehe.
thanks to bestie too ! he accompanied me ! hehe. Eventhough he had to leave early ... :D But still come on. THANKS SO MUCHHH ! :D hehe. he helped me too though cause i looked rather lost with what hat was talking to me. LOL. OUH OUH OUH ! AND I SHOWED STELLA AND BESTIE THE LAVA LAMP SONG . BESTIE SEEMED TO LOVE IT... STELLA ? well ... lets just say she is like ... okay ? with it? I DONT KNOW. heh. she only laughed at me cause i followed their dance steps. like cmon people its addictive. me and MY BFFL is going to do that dare. hehe. but.....lava lamp is at my malaysia house. how now brown cow? damn. HAHA. nvm we shall find a way then . we can do it. we always have such crazy ideas. i love being all random when I'm with her. my random crazy partner. hehehe<3 .="." :o=":o" a="a" anatomy="anatomy" and="and" be="be" best.="best." bestie="bestie" die="die" easy="easy" else....="else...." going="going" great.="great." having="having" hehe.="hehe." hehehe.="hehehe." help="help" i="i" in="in" is="is" it.="it." its="its" juts="juts" know="know" lixuan="lixuan" mic.="mic." my="my" nbsp="nbsp" need="need" no="no" now.="now." okay="okay" or="or" session="session" shall="shall" she="she" simply="simply" so="so" somebody="somebody" start="start" stella="stella" study="study" studying="studying" the="the" though.="though." to="to" tomorrow="tomorrow" u="u" will="will" with="with" xoxoxox="xoxoxox" y="y">

I am Lost.

So... Richard, Blocked me from Facebook... And i dont even know why exactly. I just know.. I didnt sent any Messages that Friday. And saturday for me. Lol. I wanted to but i was hoping for him to sent me a message first. he did sent me first which says... "Look. If you didnt want to talk. I get it."
I was like what? lol. I was studying and plus...i have like ... An exam coming. And i thought he had youth group?! O.o? But he said he didnt go to that anymore. HOW WOULD I KNOW?!! He didnt even say Anything about that. And he said he was hoping for my messages.. And that he saw my status about " youre somebody that i used to know" i Was listening to that music... And i update my status for fun he thought i was referring to him. Like... DAFUG?! REALLY DUDE?! U said u didnt really feel the love you had for me. And when im like Treating you as a friend you said goodbye and blocked me ? Like what? WHATS UR FUCKING MOTIVE ?! Well what the hell. Its ur choice. I FEEL FREE now. I dont know i am much happier like this. Ure trying to be like Dustin? The way he said goodbye? Please ... Dude. I wont cry over you like how i cried over dustin. Ive learnt from it. My tears dosent deserve someone like you. I am over u already. I dont have to Frigginly brood over this for 6months. Yes, ive lost a friend. But friends come and go. I have Friends here, and i love them how i USED to love you. My feelings towards you and them Was never different. Well i hope you get what uve been searching for. Lol~ im just as happy as. I am before. In my mind i was saying RIP to you. Youre dead to me. Its fair right? U did the same to me. LOL. Whatever man. Go live your life. I dont give a fuck. HAHAHAHA ~

So.... Ive been studying MIC. And im so damn afraid for the exam. LOL. Hopefully i can make it. ): So tmrw ill have A peer tutoring. And i dont even know who is my Tutor? O.o? Da hell? LOL. Nvm . Bestie is going. So .... Im not gg to be alone. And look like a lost dog. LOL. FRIDAY was awesome. I had an ice skating session with bestie, my twin, stella, li xuan and Robert! Weeee ~ i. Had a blast ! But sadly have to go out early. Hais mais. Its so sad. LOL HOCKEY SKATES ARE JUST HARD. prefer figure skates! Im much more comfortable in that. LOL. Yes! SO DAMN COMFORTABLE. I had blisters though. But what the hell. I love it. LOL. Xoxo. Muah! Love you blisters. Meheheh. Thats all i have to update shall see if i have any free time and intresting thing happen tmrw or the next next day. MEH.


Some pictures maybe?

Smiles are just as awesome as it seems.

ITS SINGAPORE BIRTHDAY TODAY AND I SPENT MY FREAKING DAY WORKING ! ~
YEYYYYY ! !~  See, how committed i am towards my working life? I'm a good example ! WEEE~ lol. so Hairil worked with me today. Alif didn't. ): I'm sad ! he dislocated his shoulder again and its in the wrong place. LOL. so he had to made an appointment with the doctor. okay , never mind. Work was ....FUN ? even though theres a lot of people ! haha. cause hairil was with me. heh ! i treated him like a punching bag. he taught me some few new fighting skills. LOL. it was damn fun. and we PUNCHED the boxes at our store room. LOL. and acted like it was not us. LOL. he didn't FAST today. Alif have to kick him at his ribs ! and i wish i would be there when he got it. YEY. sadist i know. LOL. well. i had fun though. looking at people suffer in pain. so, The title of my blog ! HEEE ~  it was soooo. AAHHH ! can melt. LOL. i was asking for one customer's order when i saw this guy, queueing at the line... i was like "oh hell. he so cute ! please don't come to my counter ! " LOL. so apparently this customer of mine took such long time to decide on what FOOD to eat. Thank god for that though. PHHEEEW ~! so my colleague took his order. and she was like " IKAAA ! IKAAA ! HE SO CUTE !" ( in malay of course) LOL. and i looked at him and i caught him looking at me.! he was Smiling !! at me ! at first i didn't smile back.. i g oand walked away to get the drinks my customer just ordered. in my heart it was like "dup dup dup" LOL. it was beating damn fast. and I'm starting to blush. i turned back and he was like . SMILING AND NODDING AT ME ! HAHAHAHA. I NOD AND SMILED BACK AT HIM! he stood below the light and it was like a picture perfect moment. i MELTED. heheh. and my colleague was like ! wow ! he was looking at you all the way you know ! HE SMILED AT YOU ! lol. wee !~ well, good-looking guy... i won't be able to see you again. LOL. wish i could. hehhe. now , currently I'm listening t o CALL ME MAYBE ? i should have done that to that guy man ! CURSES ! CROWD ! lol. mehehe. OH GOODLOOKING GUY ! ~ you are still on my mind. dammit you ! LOL. alright. i bet thats all i guess? tmrw ! ice skating session ?! and I'm gonna try on the HOCKEY skates. WEE !~ i ll think I'm gonna fall most of the time. LOL ! never mind. embrace the fall ! ~ heh. it was supposed to be an outing with dany. but meh ! he is not free. so yeah ! i m fine with it. HEH . I'm going ice skating btw! frrreeeeeeet ! i am elf ! i wanna be an elf ! really. elves are awesome ! :D . WEEE. so yah . thats all i guess. xD for real. LOL. so wanna see some pic ?

PEACE YA ! 

ME WITH A FACIAL HAIR. HOWD I LOOOK?

HEARTBREAKING.... NOT ?

HEARTBRAKING MOMENTS

So, i knew something new today. After letting Richard knows how i truly felt after the break up. I missed him and that i still do love and care for him. He said... that ... when we were together, he dosent really felt like he really loved me. Because he dosent get to show his real feelings to me. Cause we were half planet away. Its not like how he would say I LOVE YOU face to face and that he sometimes dosent feel the love between me and him. I should have not tell him in the first place. I should not have trusted him that much, i should have not loved him as much as i am right now. I should have not met him. I should have not accept his DAMN proposal. Loving him was my mistake. I should have listened to my friends. Of what Khalifah told me. I should not have stand up for us. I should have trusts my damn own feelings. Im shattered. Trusting myself was an issue for me since secondary school. I have lost the trust and beliefs I used to have during primary school. MAYBE i was too young and i didn't know how cruel this world would be... that i trusts myself in everything i do. Ive lost that part of me. Losing that part of me and wanting to get it back ... its hard. I don't even know where to start. Im fallen into pieces. Carrying myself up would be a long long long process. I don't know who should i ask help from. Im ashamed. I rejected all help i need and I'm left alone. I don't want any of this things to happened. I guess history repeats itself huh? Just that this is more hurtful than the previous one. After getting to know what he told me... i just left. I made an excuse that i have to do my assignments and my iPod is dying. Just to go away from him and prevent myself from hurting. He wants me to open up myself to love someone else. Its hard, its not easy, It might be easy for him caused he grew the feelings towards his best friend. Sarah. I couldn't blame her though. They were close to each other. Im nothing compared to her.

So anyways, miss nancy Lost my Nursing Care Plan 3 and she asked me to redo. HEHEHE . And that means she will remark my NCP3 . Wee Hopefully i beat Lesean's marks for FON. He dosent want to compare marks for our NCP 2 cause i scored full marks for that. Ive received full 4%. heheh. SO YAH. So today, after school ended around 11am. I went to my workplace and watched REDLIGHTS. Its an AWESOME movie. U GUYS SHOULD WATCH IT MAN ! Haha. I cried and get all excited all by myself. Watching movie alone IS FUN ! I prefer watching it all alone. CALL ME FOREVER ALONE. Cause I'm proud to be one xD. I HAVE A MIND OF AN ASSASSIN. Sorry my randomness of my brain is acting up. I don't blame myself for that. HEE !~ it keeps me happy. HEHE. So i am looking for this PIKACHU pajamas. LOL. Its soooooo CUTE ! I COULD JUST DIE ! I wanna sleep in it. HEHEH. OUH OUH ! IVE BOUGHT A CLOCK FOR MY ROOM. And its .... RED ! YIPEEE ! And my sis bought a .... LAVA LAMP. Weep~ sweet, and its also red. I don't know. I just wanna make my room reddish. It looks like anger something like that... referring to rage. Im saving up money for my FRIGGIN punching bag. GAHH ! NEED ONE OF THOSE. REAL BAD. Heh. I guess today is quite enjoyable as i get to hang out with MY BFFL. Even though its only for a while. Ill be meeting her next week and this Saturday. Hooray~ i love her. Maybe i should just share what I'm really feeling right now. Since she knows me best. We have been together for like 13 years now. And we have YET to get a scrapbook for us three. I wonder when will we ever get that. Mmmm.

Loving you was a mistake. Its a waste. my heart shattered into pieces you would never have imagined. I am sorry. Im distancing myself from you. I no longer see you as my best friend but a liar.

XOXO. 

The Guy makes me melt

HEY . so ended school at 3pm ? yeah. HEH. were ! ~ went to my workplace to meet up with my mum and waited for my sister from school. she ended at 6pm so yeah. HEHE. so while waiting... there is this CUTE HOT SEDUCTIVE EYES ANGMOH GUY .....WALKED PASSED ME AND I AM LIKE.... OMG OMG OMG . lol. HE LOOKED INTO MY EYES AS HE WALKED PASSED ME.  weehoooo !~ heheh.  his sweats make him hot. really. no joke. LOL. I'm sorry i tend to find angmohs hot when there sweating. (DIGUSTING ME ) SO YEAH . lol. thats about the hot guy...xD


so we break our fast in the car. I bought a lot of FOODS even though I'm not fasting. LOLS. sorry i can't help myself. THE FOOD IS CALLING ME. GOD !~ SNAPPLE STRAWBERRY AND KIWI IS SOOOO AWESOME , YOU GUYS SHOULD TRY IT. REALLY. MUAHAHAHA. <3 excited="excited" nbsp="nbsp">

i GOT B FOR MY PRACTICAL TEST FOR ANATOMY. I THOUGHT ILL FAILED IT. lol ! MUAHAHAHA. I'm so happy ! ~ NEXT NSL ! LEGGO !~ IM CHALLENGING WITH SEAN. ILL BEAT YOU ONE DAY. SERIOUSLY ! MUAHAHAHA !


okay so yeah. idk what to talk about already. just that HOT guy I'm emphasizing on in this blog. I WILL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN. ): SADED !!

no pictures for today. I'm so tired ! ):
XOXO.

FUN DAY? I guess? I dont know? Meh!

FUN DAY? I guess? I dont know? Meh!

So today i woke up for morning eating...(sahur) LOL. As usual when people are fasting. We have to wake up early in the morning to eat before the sun rises. LOL. So ...woke up and eat. I woke up and eat oo you know ! Eventhough i wont be fasting for the next one week. LOL. I dont know why. I regret though. LOL. So anyways! I ate and start doing my Health Psychology Assignment 3. i start at 4.45am and end at 7am. I TOOK LIKE 2H 15MINS ! Damn ! Thats slow. LOL. So i already did printed it. Since i already have downloaded this office. YEY ! THANKS TO KHALIFAH THOUGH! SHE HELPED ME :D <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp">

so after helping my mum went to The clubhouse and chatted with lesean and Richard. He is now living with his friend and that he is enjoying himself. So i wont have to worry that much right? But... but... i miss him ): and i still love and care for him ): he does tooo... but we cant be together. I DONT KNOW ! This is complicated. Seriously. Whatever. I have to concentrate on my studies for now. Really. Ive been slacking and procrastinating. Have to wake up and BULK UP. So tomorrow will be my anatomy Practical test that starts at 11am. Hopefully i can do it ! And its easy ! :( . *cross finger*

oh and i have to write a letter to STELLA ! I almost forgot about that. LOL. She gave me a letter on last friday. And i am gonna reply to her. LOL. Now i have to search high and low for the colour paper. Drats. LOL. Heh. So yeah. Today was quite tiring day for me. And i am so anxious for tomorrow's paper. PLEASE LISTEN TO MY PRAYER GOD ! HELP ME ! :D

so here is some pic. I am that bored. I have to take some pic to make it more lively. Right?

surprise! surprise !

So , worked today . from 9am till 5pm..I SWEAR the time goes DAMN slow ! i was so lethargic. and I'm just being the runner. and taking some orders. i don't know why but even though I'm lethargic and stuffs... i manage to be so nice towards the customers. maybe they are not giving their F'ed up Attitude. so I'm fine with it ? i guess? LOLS. so... there is nothing to talk about actually. OUH !  i was half day FASTING when ........ I'm having my MENSTRUATION. like DAFUQ ?! why YOU !!!! ~ so i bought.... FAMOUS AMOS. wee ~ butterscotch and Pecan. YUM YUM, nomnomnom.

i will have to finish up my HP assignment by tomorrow though. Monday will be my god damn due date. ASS. lol. this is me. procrastinating queen is IN DA HOUSE. woooooohh !

urmmm. so.... theres nothing really happened today. that is THAT interesting to share about. but nevertheless. IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE TOMORROW AND I CAN SLEEP THE WHOLE DAY. well i have to wake up early though to complete my assignments. :( . sad. i kept on repeating the same damn thing ! okay. shall update tmrw. i guess?




XOXO.



enjoy some pic :D

YEY . RANDOMNESS.

yesterday post. Love is not a choice. its a beckoning.

Love is not a choice,its a beckoning


so, me and richard broke up today at 408am in Canada and its like 608pm in Singapore. I was about to have my Fundamentals of Nursing test when it happened. I was devastated of course..But, i never lose him as a friend though. We are still best friend. Hopefully we are like how we used to. I don't want to lose him and how we used to be. Im glad we didn't lose that. Cause if we would... i'm literally dead. No one can understand how i feel really. But , its hard for me to make them understand. Thanks to my BFFL, Sherry for making me realized the whole looked from another point of view. I cried though in class. Luckily no one realized it. Whatever. He said this .

“ I would end this relationship with you and Sarah. I don't want to end it with only you. If i would continue this relationship i would continue with you. Maybe its not now...but in the future.”

“ i would never let go of you, i would be stupid if we were to be strangers when we broke up ...we would still be best friends. I will always be your best friend through thick and thin. Remember that.”


“Hopefully I wont get any nightmares later on. Actually .... it hurts me a lot in ending this relationship.”

i couldn't really reply to him a very good reply but i was smiling. I don't even know why. I am trying my best to look at the positive side of life. I still have my friends who loves me. Thanks to sherry, lesean, stella and kariza for asking me wether I am okay or not. I am glad they noticed. Heh. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

well, today i had FON test...and i did a very bad mistake. My first answer was right...but i ended up changing the last minute and caused me to lose mark. ASS. Must stop thinking too much on a question yknow. My freaking habit. Must stop that ASAP. So the deal is on between me and sean. For AAP and FON. Hah. I have a good feeling i am the one who is going to treat him. >_> LOLS. Never mind. A deal is a deal. We shall keep our word ! Leggo!~

i don't know ...i think its just me.. or anything else... but.... i like hanging out with guys than girls. Well. I don't know. I LOVE hanging out with ifa and kariza. They are awesome bunch of people. BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL that im not as HPYER as they are. Lol. I felt left out actually. LOL. Especially when im all emo and shit like that. Must stop that.


Well i did blood grouping again this morning. Its damn fun. I just love pricking myself with the needle. I put on the longest line on the needle..so it would prick me deep down. It wasn't that painful though. Its just like a red ants biting you. And thats all. U wont feel anything more. Was hoping of much more pain...but it dissapoint me. Ouh and I brought home one of the needle. I put it inside my pencil box...when lesean accidentally took one. LOL. I think ? But MEH ! Its here now with me. Weee!~ i don't even know what to do with it. LOLS.

I wrote a lot for today. I think? Im working tomorrow and im not LOOKING forward to it. I want to sleep the whole day. Wait, i have yet to finish my assignments. Drats! Oh ! And study for my anatomy practical. I shall then do my assignments on sunday and study for prac. Whole day chiong. I need to bulk up you know. Like seriously. =.= .
shall update again tomorrow. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">


GOODNIGHT. XOXO

doing well ?

heya. so today was quite okay i guess? LOL . thought of going bugis after school, but MEH! We went to P08 anatomy class from Dr dave. HE IS AWESOME ! i understand him very well. Today for the class .. we found out what is our blood type. mine is ....O positive ! yeyyyy ! ~ I'm rare xD . well not the rare but come on. O positive xD . So after anatomy it ended at 4pm. Stayed back with Kariza, my EVIL TWIN. MY RANDOM WEIRD FUN STUPID DUMB FILIPINO CHINESE ACCENT FRIEND. we kept laughing and i literally roll on the floor when we made funny comments. LOL . WE PLAYED WITH THE CHAIR.. and act as though we are evil and expecting each other presence. " i ve been expecting you" LOL. her face made me laugh. she can't do evil face ! it cracks me up. i had fun overall. LOL. she called me awesomely weird girl she have ever met. WEEE !~ its a good thing right ? lol. i like how that sound. MUAHAHA. makes me unique xD . must stop praising myself know.


i have a STRONG feeling i will fail my anatomy second class test. LOL. however , i have made a deal with my bestie.. lesean. if somome pass, the failure will have to treat STARBUCKS. WEEE !~ obviously I'm the one who should treat him. He so good at anatomy. i suck at it. LOL. so if we both pass, (it would be a miracle if i did pass) we shall treat each other starbucks. LOLOLOL ! so looking forward to it. STARBUCKS ! MY FAVOURITE !! <3 nbsp="nbsp" nom.="nom." nom="nom" p="p">


Am i making the right decision? i tend to make the wrong decision in life. but I currently don't feel anything right now. like seriously. Im thinking about me and richard again. I feel as though i don't have anymore feelings towards him. like..... lesser now? since he said he have feelings for sarah... Like come on. HE HAVE FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE ELSE ! like wtf ! and he said he still loves me. and he want both?! like SAY WHAT ?!!!! and i freakingly agreed to share him with sarah. =.= tell me I'm stupid. i know. LOL. AND NOW , HE KEPT TALKING ABOUT HER. ill be like ... "oh" "okay" "cool" LOLOL ! i feel like just scream virtually at his face ! " I DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT HER OKAY ! " " I DONT HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT HER !! STOP IT ! " But no.....i didn't do it. IM just plain dumb. weeee. !~ dumb blonde here. K. I just don't know. i want to give up on him...but I'm scared ill lose him as my best friend. and we won't be like old times. This sucks right? LOL. I'm feeling suckish.


so how was your day? mine was quite fun ! looking forward for tomorrow. meheh. <3 barbies="barbies" feelings="feelings" have="have" okay="okay" p="p" xd="xd">

Hows your day?

so ... life have been really awesome i guess?
well not that AWESOME ! but.... its just awesome. you know what i mean? okay. forget it.
i almost lost him. we almost broke up. maybe of my insecurities? well.. its normal right ? all girls experience that.. insecurities is such a mainstream to all girls. they will tend to feel that something bad will always happen. BUT does that mean ... it will have something got to do with the trusts they have towards their partner ? i don't think so. well , we fought because of that and him having a feeling towards his best friend...Sarah. well i have made the decision...and i think its best for everyone. sometimes we just have to sacrifice for our love huh? Love without sacrifices is just shitty. TURDS ! okay whatever. since we both are fine now... and I'm happy. haha! i think? idk, never really thought about that. happiness thingy. its normal. LOL.

so Dany asked me out and i don't really know wether to go or not. my friends says i must not go. BUT ! i wanna go !! i kinda miss Dany! Haha, its been such a long time since i last met him. when was that? i don't even remember. :O LOLs. He suggested to go and ride the Singapore Flyer with him and I'm fine with it. He is treating me though. even though i was joking about it. he even have the tickets with him! omg ! xD THATS FAST!~ ouh ouh ! and he told me HIMYM Season 8 will be coming out on sept 29! like DAFUQ ?! I thought season 7 is the final season ! wtf wtf wtf. heheh. WHATEVER. I WANNA WATCH HIMYM ! <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
so i just had my NSL practical test today and i freakingly PASSED ! like FINALLY. i was doing shitty  stuff back there. i forgot a lot of things. cause panic attacked. my mind was officially blank when i read the freaking case scenario. DAMN. hate when that happens. BUT ! thanks to LESEAN he talked loudly and he got the same scenario with me , ventri mask... i WAS LIKE YES ! so i heard what he said. yeah, ihe "helped" me. well ... not as like cheating ...but his voice is loud. so it reminds me some few important stuffs. DAMN hand washing.!  i totally forgotten about it you know ! hehe. so THANK YOU ! <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp"> SO currently I'm listening to BOYCE AVENUE. and they are simply ....AWESOME ! <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp">