Am i happy ? or just hurt ?

I stalked his profile just now. well i don't really know why exactly..maybe i just want to know how is he doing. and apparently, he is doing very well without me. so i might as well ...really don't bother about him anymore huh? its all just words. he never really meant it. i was so stupid. i can't deny that. he is now going out with his friend savannah. LOL. its funny how he can really moved on that fast. meh, maybe he is just playing around with me. I'm just so naive. really. i hate this part of me. believing in every word someone said to me. well.. i don't know wether i am happy after looking at his profile or just hurt. like come on. who wants to see someone you really loved once loving someone new so fast? and that at least he found someone new? meh. today went studying session with the usuals. lol. Bestie told us how and what he did to his girlfriend. its so sweet i have to admit that. Lol. she is lucky :D and i bet bestie is gonna take care of her :D make sure she appreciates it man, if she dosen't...ill make her do it. MEH ! so ... i don't really know what i am feeling right now. but I'm trying to replace richard. i don't know. this is stupid. i said i treat him dead but a little portion of me just feels that ...i cared for him. someone....please help me. I'm ... lost. i don't want to really rely on my feelings. its taking control over me and i don't want this things to affect me on my studies. GAH ! I've learnt from this...i don't want the history to repeat itself. its hopeless. really. i MISS dany though. really. lol. okay, shall shuddup. xoxox.