yesterday post. Love is not a choice. its a beckoning.

Love is not a choice,its a beckoning


so, me and richard broke up today at 408am in Canada and its like 608pm in Singapore. I was about to have my Fundamentals of Nursing test when it happened. I was devastated of course..But, i never lose him as a friend though. We are still best friend. Hopefully we are like how we used to. I don't want to lose him and how we used to be. Im glad we didn't lose that. Cause if we would... i'm literally dead. No one can understand how i feel really. But , its hard for me to make them understand. Thanks to my BFFL, Sherry for making me realized the whole looked from another point of view. I cried though in class. Luckily no one realized it. Whatever. He said this .

“ I would end this relationship with you and Sarah. I don't want to end it with only you. If i would continue this relationship i would continue with you. Maybe its not now...but in the future.”

“ i would never let go of you, i would be stupid if we were to be strangers when we broke up ...we would still be best friends. I will always be your best friend through thick and thin. Remember that.”


“Hopefully I wont get any nightmares later on. Actually .... it hurts me a lot in ending this relationship.”

i couldn't really reply to him a very good reply but i was smiling. I don't even know why. I am trying my best to look at the positive side of life. I still have my friends who loves me. Thanks to sherry, lesean, stella and kariza for asking me wether I am okay or not. I am glad they noticed. Heh. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

well, today i had FON test...and i did a very bad mistake. My first answer was right...but i ended up changing the last minute and caused me to lose mark. ASS. Must stop thinking too much on a question yknow. My freaking habit. Must stop that ASAP. So the deal is on between me and sean. For AAP and FON. Hah. I have a good feeling i am the one who is going to treat him. >_> LOLS. Never mind. A deal is a deal. We shall keep our word ! Leggo!~

i don't know ...i think its just me.. or anything else... but.... i like hanging out with guys than girls. Well. I don't know. I LOVE hanging out with ifa and kariza. They are awesome bunch of people. BUT SOMETIMES I FEEL that im not as HPYER as they are. Lol. I felt left out actually. LOL. Especially when im all emo and shit like that. Must stop that.


Well i did blood grouping again this morning. Its damn fun. I just love pricking myself with the needle. I put on the longest line on the needle..so it would prick me deep down. It wasn't that painful though. Its just like a red ants biting you. And thats all. U wont feel anything more. Was hoping of much more pain...but it dissapoint me. Ouh and I brought home one of the needle. I put it inside my pencil box...when lesean accidentally took one. LOL. I think ? But MEH ! Its here now with me. Weee!~ i don't even know what to do with it. LOLS.

I wrote a lot for today. I think? Im working tomorrow and im not LOOKING forward to it. I want to sleep the whole day. Wait, i have yet to finish my assignments. Drats! Oh ! And study for my anatomy practical. I shall then do my assignments on sunday and study for prac. Whole day chiong. I need to bulk up you know. Like seriously. =.= .
shall update again tomorrow. <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">


GOODNIGHT. XOXO