Dont think this is your house means you are always right. I will always fight for myself when I am right. You said it yourself , "ciksu jumpe condom at alif jeans" Now then want say that I say anyhow. Shout at me saying im rude and stuffs. Well , Fuck U !! I dont mind shouting back at you cause I know what I hear. U said "CIKSU" . And u told me at the study room where ure cleaning it and where alif puts his jeans at. U JUMP IN A CONCLUSION. Thinking of something worse. I have been enduring being patient towards your freaking attitude. I FUCKING AM STUPID FOR KEEPING YOUR FUCKING LIES TOWARDS MY MUM. WELL I AM HAPPY I TOLD HER WITHOUT YOU KNOWING ! I glad I did. Well , atleast I didnt keep secrets from my own family members. Secrets that will,ruin the family . Atleast ! I wont negelect my own child when I grow up.. Atleast I am not BIASED as you. U have gone too far. I dont like getting stepped on , and critisizing me when I,am right ! U are not worthy to do that. I know I am rude . I know that , but I HAVE TO STAND FOR MY RIGHTS ! I am,not like my mother. Just so you know your own son hated you. Ouh , and fyi , this so called "home" is nothing near HOME. This is more like HELL. I cant stand all,this bullshit that is happening. ARGGHHHH ~
I used to tell you about what I,am facing right now , but now, I dont think I will tell you. I guess ure not treating me as your listening,ears .. So why should I ? U dont even bother to even look for me when it all pass. Hah! How silly am I ? I just want to tell you that I have gound someone better than you. Like what you said. And I am very happy with him. Eventhough all of his past is that worse than yours , I kinda fond it really intresting. And wanting to,know more about him. I dont feel butterflies when I met you. But I,did feel butterflies when I met him. The warmth whenever im around him , all of his smiles and laughters. I love everything about him. I dont feel the same way when I am around you. I am so STUPID to even cry for you. All my tears just went to waste. FUCK ! I,cant believe it. I was SO STUPID. YES. STUPID. DUMB. EVERYTHING THAT HAVE TO DO WITH STUPIDITY = ME.
AND FYI. I am happy now. I never regret anything ever since I met him. So , hopefully you will find someone better than me. HAHA. someone that is not that STUPID as me to fall for you.
What I am feeling right now , is I am waiting for my knight,to,rescue me from this problems. From everything,even it is a short period of time.
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