The feeling of being betrayed and cheated on. really sucks. I never thought that YOU would say such things. Seriously. I didnt of thought you would do such things to me. I didnt need a lot of help. I didnt even asks for your help. You asked me , wether "i am your gf " . I didnt said you were my boyfriend. YOU ASKED ME. Truthfully , I didnt want to say yes. But , I did. I took it back , but u said no. I am your gf.
What ? What did I do that you said im childish ? Ouh , im sorry , for my childishness. I know im 18 . So which one is childish now ? Talking behind people's back ? U didnt confront to me. I dont know what I did. Well , atleast , I am.who I am. So if you think im childish and it affects you alot , why are you still holding on onto this relationship ? Cause the way I see it , it is affecting you. And I dont want to affect you in any other ways. Sorry , if I have affected you in some ways , which idk.what... I didnt meant anything. I didnt intend to do such things. Im sorry , but , I think if Im affecting.you , lets just , have a break with this relationship. yes , it hurts to say this. But luckily , I didnt hope to high for this relationship to go on. You with NS , and im working and going to continue with my studies. I dont know okay ! I dont know what to do ! This is unbelievable. I really wish this was just a bad dream. But , unfortunately , it is real hard reality. I have to face it one day. I never thought it would be so sooon. I love you, I do. But, things happened huh ? I never want to be the reason you're affecting. I never want. No one does.
It kills me okay. It really does. Now , what im thinking right now , what do u really feel towards me ?. Are all those words u told me are just lies ? Or isit what you really feel ? I just need you to be honest. Thats all. Isit so much to,ask ? Urgh ~
Alot of questions in my mind. Ive dissapointed my one and only BFFL and now that ive found out about this. That im affecting my boyfriend. What is all of this ?
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