why do i always feel that i am invisible to everyone around me. its like as if .. i dont really exist. its really sad for me. I dont really wish to have alot of attention. i just need few of it. not like NOTHING at all. why is everything not going my way. sometimes i really do feel its Its UNFAIR ! really. everything bad happens to me.


so I REALLY WANT TO CATCH THE DEVIL INSIDE movie. watched the trailer in seems to be AWESOME . and it is only ..hmmm. NC16. hahha! awesome ! i also would like to watch STAR WARS! anyone want to watch with me ?

i miss you . i really do. but .. urgh ~ why do i even bother ? ure dont even care about me. u never do. i dont get why you must be so mean to me ? like .. okay... i dont find any motive for you to be mean. am i like really disturbing you or what ? why cant you just tell me. GAH ~ i hate this . really. no one can really understand me. you know what ? when i am in poly , i guess ill be very diff from who i am now. im not going to talk alot and im not going to show who i really am. ill be very quiet. focusing on my future. cause the way i see it , i dont really want care about everyone and everything that is around me. if i am invisble to everyone .. so be it. i dont give a fuck anymore.