What is all this ?

it is always you on my mind ... which i really thought im over you .. but im not.
I kept re-reading all our old conversations. i miss all of those. i miss the feeling i get when i recieve a text from you. everything, why isit so hard for me ? and it seems alot easier for you ? I feel down everytime when i thought about us .
i kept telling myself that i am over you . The truth ? hell no.
if i know it would be this hard ? i wouldnt want to feel the feeling of loving someone . and ending up hurting me like hell.

my emotions are really fucked up. I MISS YOU . alot. but i have to lie to the people around me. i must stop talking about you. i must try my best not to even mention your name in my conversation.. but you is all i think about. i kept on substitute this feelings . I tried giving someone a chance.. but i couldnt work it out. its harsh. i know. but .. i wouldnt want to force myself in loving someone.

sometimes i wish you would randomly text me or whatsapp me. knowing that u still remember me .. then to have forgotten about me and act as if im a stranger to you. i miss you. really, ARGH !