how ya doing ?

HEY ! its been a long time since i updated my blog. been very busy and lazy. normal thing for me . LOL . wanted to ... but every time i would want to update the other websites gave me a lot to offer. so i neglected my blog. What kind of person i am ?!  i don't know man . HAHAA. so I'm currently listening to 1985 by the bowling for soup. I LOVE THEM . On A SUNDAY MORNING. So , its almost three weeks of my Clinical attachment, I am having too much fun that is the reason why the time flies so fast. DAYUUM. HEH . so anyways , next week will be the last week . Hooray? I'm excited. cause i wanna spend my one week of holidays. CHEY ~ i have some assignments to do though. heh xD I ALMOST forgotten about that . DRATS !  so .. anyways ... THE WEATHER HERE ITS .... AWESOME ! come someone ... hug me. I'm cold ! LOL !

i made  a baby cry . HAHAH ! take that ! thats for Looking at me while I'm enjoying my burger ! MUAHAHAHA ! *EVIL FACE * sorry if i gave a nightmare though little kid. I'm just being a pedophile who would kill you during your sleep at night. so .. WATCHED A few videos so far .. at youtube ! DAMN . i wanna try to play slender ! LOL ! and DOOM 3 ? ! i WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO FINISH THAT GAME. hahahaha ! pathetic. AND what happens to my Skyrim! its at my aunt house ... And ... I'm here in malaysia ! MY SKYRIM BABY !  i wanna play you ! WHY YOU SO FAR. thats it. gonna save and buy my own PS3 . and games ! and play all night long. ! mUAHAHA !~ no one can stop me ! sis is busy with her art ... and I'm here ... slacking ... with lappy all the way. downloaded a few games. pretty pathetic . hahaa ~ bored ! i could just lie down and let myself surrender to boredom of all boredom. WTF ? am i typing ? I m in need of ENERGY DRINK . i think ... i think ... i am ... ENERDICTED.  energy + addicted. PRETTY awesome huh ? creative ! i like i like ! SO most probably thats all i have ? my blog kinda PLAIN ! for some people !~ * looking at you straight in your eyeballs* HMMM . LOL ! okay . so thats all . Byes ! shall update soon . i think ? if I'm not that LAZY and DISTRACTED. hahaha ! xD  . my sis boyfriend is so annoying. can i kill him ?! BUT before that .... ill make sure he shrink in size . AHAHAHA ~~  k. I'm bad. Stop it ika, NO. stop being so mean. DAYUM.

What is left ?

what is left between us? we are friends now.. but we missed the times when we were together. you told me you still loved me. so its mutual. i still love you. i never did confess yet. i am just am scared to be disappointed again. My sister's boyfriend asks me to be careful as he docent want me to get hurt.. awww how sweet ! but ... I still don't really letting you go if you were to hurt my sister. *judging face* LOL. okay whatever.. I'm side tracking. MEH. i still don't know if we will be able to be together again. heh. i really do want us to be together again. i don`t know why. some people might call me stupid or crazy as i can forgive him easily. just so you guys know , i never did hate him.. i never did try to forget about him. He is simply is the one  i always think about. no doubt. pffft ~ can't help myself. okay so !!! today andy came to work today. omg omg omg omg ... he is so cute ! OUH ! and we ate salted popcorn mix with iced milo ! its tasted like cereal ! no joke ! ouh and he tried sweet popcorn with iced milo and also with butter. he hates that . ITS NICE BUT HE SAID IT SUCKS ! lol ! come on ! ANDY SERIOUSLY ?!  ITS SO NICE ! hahaha. he is an Student of MMA.  


HEH. ouh ! i am meeting my secondary school best friends tomorrow.. its been almost a year since i last met them , miss them a lot. a lot a lot a lot. gosh. so we are going to have a short reunion tomorrow ! :D weeee ~ I'm so egg cited. and i have yet to look for a suitable clothing for tmrw's outing. gosh. maybe before sleep i will just dig my drawers for my clothes ! yes, i have yet to get myself a cupboard . lol ! pffft , pathetic little me. so yeah ! ill update again tmrw <3 are.="are." guys="guys" is="is" know="know" love="love" nbsp="nbsp" p="p" post.="post." reading="reading" this="this" who="who" whoever="whoever" you="you">

happy happy

so .. im in a happy mood today ! like seriously ! i feel sooo ... i don't know.. overwhelmed + hyper. MEH !  want to know why ? ..............................................................
.......................... it is because ............. ME AND RICHARD IS BACK TOGETHER AS FRIENDS !!! we are giving it another shot .. i missed him. he missed me. we tried to be happy without each other but we weren't able to do it. we felt like something was missing. a missing piece in ourselves. Its funny how we are able to talk like how we used to. i think things are changing around again. Wow... things changed. no doubt about that. It maybe good or bad. but good things will surely follow up after that. there's always rainbow after a heavy downpour. I was devastated when we are not friends.. but somehow ... my heart lightens back how i used to feel. its no joke seriously. i just can't describe how happy i am right now. only god knows. I thank god for this.

AND  ! ali have agreed in giving me his account in diablo 3 ..so i can play. but! he have not given me ! he said he would but... WHY ALI WHY ?! WHY YOU SO EVIL ! damn you. HAHAHA. just give me ! and tell me what you want in return. please lah. reply.... i want play ): .... mercy. :S .


Work today was FUN. i think ? juts for some things that pisses me off... a little. MEH ! heh. some people just that inconsiderate don't you think? imagine ... being left alone at the counter with a new kid which barely knows how to do the work properly and all you knew was they went to buy food.... the hell is wrong with you people ?! okay , at least its not a lot of crowd .. i can handle it. BUT ! what pisses me off was that SHE HAVE HER BREAK FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR ! like seriously ?! B#@$%  ! and the crowd was coming. it was HELL . like literally. pffft ~ and suddenly she popped out from no where. BAAAAHHHH ~ that was a sound effect that was on my mind that time. GAHHH ~ don't ask me why. i tend to have sound effect in my mind to make it more of like a dramatic sensation and interesting. hahahah !

I'm suffering

so .. i don't know, i feel like I'm not myself today. i think that i am not happy in the inside. i want to scream it all out. i need someone, someone i can talk to and someone who really understands me.  like how richard was to me. i missed him, i can't deny that. he is the only one who i think truly understands me. but he is far away. and i can't really talk to him directly. i have to use cyber to get to him. but nah , now ... we aren't that close anymore nor will it be the way we used to. i can't really find someone like him. having friends sometimes docent meant they will help you most of the times. they will just tell you what to do and left us alone and do it ourself. so much for friendship . PFFT . kinda pissed with myself and others. i can't help it. i really indeed need of someone. but no one seemed to be here for me. no one. i feel really lonely now. really really lonely. hais . i guess i won't be able to find the happiness i used to have.

HI AGAIN !

HELLO ! SO I AM BACK !!!


I'm currently at home and i currently i am able to get the wifi here. isn't that great ?! you tell me ! hahahaha ! xD THANKS UH . TO THAT KID . hehe. such a good good boy . and a friend :D XOXOX. all thanks to him i don't even need to go to the clubhouse now and then. so lazy to walk thru and fore from there. hahaha ! HAIR MAPS ! okay that was random. was typing suddenly auto correct said that. and I'm like ..... ooooo HAIR MAPS ! lol. how disturbing could that be? so anyways ! i am having trouble in installing the game diablo. dammit ! BUT . ali will try and help me tmrw .so he will be meeting me tomorrow at my aunts house and we will be heading to my workplace together. he wants to work together with me . YEYYY !~ hehehe . I'm so happy. it will be awesome . i just know it. hehehe. xD ! OHH ! and ...urmm . i wanted to make a vlog right ? but i don't have any ideas on what to. LOL. i need my bffl so we can have hell lot of ideas ! random ideas . heeee. i miss her :( i miss the old times we used to share ...the random moments. hais ... hehehe . nvm . i shall meet her one day. IM SUPER NERVOUS FOR MY CLINICAL ATTACHMENT SERIOUSLY !!! DAMMIT. i don't want to go ): well i want to ...but i am afraid i won't be able to do it. awww god ....please help me ? ):